I have a lot on my mind lately as my current employment winds down and I face having to make decisions, my former husband (yes, Mr Potato Head) continues his assault on me through the Family Court and I find myself the object of unwanted affections.
Having spent most of the last year attempting to free myself from the Victim/Victor syzygy and be the Mistress of My Own Destiny, neither heroic nor downtrodden (yes, you can see I’m ever the drama queen) I’m now faced with the question: if I could have anything that I ask for – anything at all – what would that be?
So I’ve asked myself when a certain Amorous Fellow pursued me: “if I could have any guy – would I choose HIM?”
The answer was no. I’d really rather carry on being just as OK as I am now than settle for what I don’t want.
The same thing with my career. I’m now asking myself “if I could do/achieve/create anything – what would that be?”.
And ” if I could give my kids the best life they could possibly have – what would that look like?”
I want to think bigger and not be limited by circumstance, the amount (or lack) of funds in my bank account, the geographical limits of this city, the ideas and criticisms of people who neither love me or know me. Energy follows thought.
How about you guys?